I don't know that this time last year, I could have called my miscarriage a blessing. My baby would be 1 today.
Even though I was pregnant with another child shortly after I lost the one, I was very detached. Maybe that is why I couldn't name her until she was born. When I got my ultrasounds, the tech would tell me it was ok to look at the screen. I didn't want to. I didn't want to see the baby and then have it ripped from me.
But then she was placed in my arms and a joy overwhelmed me. It was then, with every ounce of my being, I understood what a gift a child is. I don't know that I would completely understand that had I not lost a child. Or maybe I just understand it in a different way.
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I understand completely. You find yourself more grateful after you have lost of child. I know my miscarriage was a blessing.
Praying for you, Sarah! I know it is hard. I have thought about you often over the last 2 weeks. Miss you!
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