You may get tired of reading about the baby, but this has been my release and I need to deal with this. I have also come to realize that not many people talk about miscarriages. There are some people that have had them that I would have never known. Maybe my words can help someone, let them know that they are not alone in how they feel.
The doctor was wrong when they said it looked like I passed the baby, I didn't, I passed it today. How do I know? Oh I know. That is when all of this became a reality. I honestly, didn't want to see the baby. If I hadn't, maybe all this would just go away and it would just be a sad memory. I scooped up the baby out of the toilet, I couldn't just flush it. It isn't a fish, it is my child! It is about the size of my thumb and it is sitting in a ziplock bag on my bathroom counter.
We are planning a burial tomorrow and honestly, I don't think I am ready. I don't think I am ready to let go. How do you let go?
4 comments:
Sara,
This is Sharelle. Erin just told me at Church and gave me the blog address. I am sooo sorry. I know exactly where you are and if you want to talk I will gladly listen and talk too if that is what you want. Erin has no number if you don't....
Hugs and Prayers....
me again...that was supposed to say Erin has MY number if you don't... typing through the tears....
I love you Sarah. Im here for you, I dont know exactly how your feeling but I would love to just be there for you. Meagan
Sarah,
I am so sorry for your loss. Please, if you need to talk about it, contact me. I lost a baby at 10 weeks back in September. I will say a prayer for you and JT.
~Danielle
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